I don’t know…

I’m quite disappointed with myself. I don’t know how to control my emotions and stress. like seriously. maybe I always act like everything is fine and okay and perfect. but i know it’s not. totally not. and the effects? changes in hormone and affect my health. not a serious one but still, my activities are now limited. no sweat. and it’s a big F.

I don’t what is wrong with me. what causes all these. I really don’t know what happened. what a pity life I had right? maybe last week was quite tough. perhaps. no one to talk to. NO ONE. everyone was busy with their business. and maybe I’m used to being alone and keeping things on my own. perhaps. I don’t know.

I just hope I will get better. and I just need to handle my stress in a really good way. I don’t know. seriously I hate taking medicine. I’m just very sad right now. very very sad.

once upon a time…

what do you want to be?
doctor? engineer? scientist?

In one high school, not so long time ago, there was a teacher. a very kind hearted teacher who put all of her heart and efforts teaching her most beloved students. One day, in the physics’ lab, the teacher asked her students.

“what do you want to be? what is your ambition?”

and can you guess her students’ answers? yes, of course, most popular answers are doctors and engineers. and one of the students just stayed at the corner quietly because her intended career is not doctor neither engineer. So the teacher was quite upset. She asked the students again.

“how many of you that want to be a teacher?”

a girl raised her hand. the teacher smiled. but cynical smile. and she said again.

“the only careers that you can see are doctors or engineer. how come only one that wants to be a teacher? who will teach your kids in the future if none of these brilliant students want to be a teacher?”

and the students were speechless. they looked at each other. somehow they agreed with their teacher. yes, the teacher is well-respected by her students. and she made them think.

so after they graduated, they have made they decision on their path. there are doctors to be, engineers to be, accountants to be, actuaries to be, lawyers to be, and most importantly, TEACHERS to be. and I believe, the teacher will be very proud of their students.

so open your eyes. there are lots more to be seen, to be learnt.