rasa rindu…

rasa rindu. rasa ingat bertemu sahabat-sahabat sebulatan dan bersembang, berkongsi cerita, masalah, aduan, and teguran untuk menjadi yang lebih baik.

Bertemu dan berpisah kerana Allah. Bertemu kerana ingin menjadi muslimah yang lebih baik. bertemu kerana ingin sahabat-sahabat sama-sama menjadi yang lebih baik. bertemu kerana aim yang satu, mencari redha Allah dan pengakhiran yang terbaik. bertemu untuk mengikat kasih sayang. bertemu kerana sayangkan mereka. bertemu kerana seminggu tidak bersua muka. rindu itu semua.

dan berpisah, dengan hati yang telah terisi ilmu baru, ilmu dari DIA. berpisah, dengan niat yang baru. Berpisah, dengan doa dan harapan, agar dipertemukan lagi minggu berikutnya. Berpisah, dengan harapan, akan ada lagi sesuatu yang baru, ilmu yang Allah bagi pinjam. Berpisah, dengan minda yang baru. berpisah, dengan hati yang lebih tenang. Berpisah, dengan satu perasaan halus menyentuh hati.

Rindu itu semua. Rindu. Saya rasa tidak pernah saya rindu ‘keluarga’ saya seperti mana saya merindui mereka. Semua. tiada terkecuali.

For now, buat apa yang termampu. Allah, bantu saya.

if you remember…

“one door closed, but there are many other doors opened for me”

keep smiling because that is what i always did
yeah, i didnt make it, i didnt do it well
but naaaaah this is not the end of the world.
the are lots more opportunities waiting for me
keep taking it positively
so live well

“hidup ini masih panjang untuk terus meratapi kegagalan kita”

tipu lah tak kecewa and koyak, kan?
for sure i am and still but yela, Allah always knows what best for us
this is just another obstacle that i have to face and get though it, before i succeed.
believe me, I will! =)

“as long as we believe, we will make it!”

That was written about 3 years ago. I think few days after ‘the day.’ I admit, that affected me physically, emotionally, inside out, but now I am thankful for that.

“sekarang kau dah nampak belum hikmahnya, Hana?” – a friend

yes, dah nampak. Reading the posts I wrote before my departure, and about my life at Taylors, made me cry. How different I was. I don’t know if UK can transform me into who I am today. Alhamdulillah, United States has. Thank you Allah for sending me there. and for meeting me up with new people.

ran-duhm

perasaan dikhianati, especially dari orang yang kita percaya, perasaan itu tak boleh diungkapkan. terlampau banyak sangat perasaan negative sehingga tak mampu dizahirkan dengan kata-kata.

Jangan sesekali mudah berkata “dah takdir Allah” tanpa usaha.

Trust. jangan sesekali ambil mudah. Sekali dapat, sila hargai. Kalau dah hilang, jangan harap dapat balik.

Jagalah hati. hati siapa? you know hati siapa.

totally random.

when it’s summer break, that means wedding invitations are coming. peer pressure di situ. 

well, was listening to Semanis Kurma this morning. About wedding. Reason to get married.

Peer pressure (culturally)

Because you meet him everyday, so ‘untuk mengelakkan maksiat, you get married.’

Because of HIM

and ada lagi tapi tak berapa nak ingat sebab tengah study Macroeconomics (konon-konon)

So, what’s yours?

cliche

Salam semua!

Alhamdulillah, June 5th, safely arrived at KLIA, MALAYSIA! The mixed feelings of nervous, excited, thrilled, happy, and so many more gone, vanished when I saw ayah’s face and mama’s smile. A year and a half it had been. had mom’s ketam masak lemak, durian, and keropok lekor and that night, had kfc with best friends! I’m sorry I just could not wait any longer to see them.

Cliche, Malaysia is panas. Went to Pangkor and got major sunburn.
Cliche, I got culture shock. Literally complained A LOT!
Cliche, cost of living is so high! Barang-barang semua mahal weh macamana aku nak shopping kat sini?!
Cliche, Malaysian’s drivers are so good in making others don’t feel safe.
Cliche, I’d give 2 out of 10 to the customer service here. Well, not all but mostly.

Seems all bad about Malaysia, right? Nope. The food here are still awesome. and the people are still nice. well, most of them.

anyways, I still love Malaysia. My hometown. Where my heart belongs.

Will write more but that’s it for now. I love being home no matter what.