Writing.

I know my writing is not that brilliant, but I will improve my writing skill I promise. But somehow I love reading my old posts. I can feel the emotion when reading them. But not my writings lately. Heartless and feelingless. well, i’m taking writing class this semester so I should be able to write better, right? I will. No worries.

rindu nak driving

rindu nak driving!

rindu nak driving pergi colllege.
rindu nak driving pergi pyramid after class.
rindu nak driving pergi Kfc semata-mata teringin nak makan hot n spicy chicken.
rindu nak driving pergi Mid Valley.
rindu nak driving pergi Giant/Setia Alam semata-mata nak makan jambu.
rindu nak driving pagi-pagi cari nasi lemak.
rindu nak driving pergi Jusco Bukit Raja nak tengok movie.
rindu nak driving pergi pasar malam nak beli pecal sedap.
rindu sangat nak driving.

rindu.

salam to all. it has been about a month since my departure. and I am missing my family and friends at home. but alhamdulillah, Allah gives me strength  that I never had before. I never thought I will be this strong, being away from family this long. well, not even a month but I never, before this, not seeing their faces for more than a week. maybe I have set up my mind that the possibility of me not meeting them for 2 years is high. maybe that’s the reason. and yes, him as well. but I will get through this. the missing feeling  is normal, right? Who won’t miss their beloved ones? Sometimes, I do cry a bit especially when mama or Cik Nanis told me about how my little cousin asked them about me. and I still, sometimes, dream about them and suddenly I wake up with teary eyes. I will get through this. I will.

 

dear mister, I miss you. I really do.

because Allah is all I have

yes, He is all I have. Things happen for reason, right? Allah sent me here. There are reasons for it, right? and Allah is testing me with my faith. Allah tests me because He loves me, right?

Do not ask me why, do not ask Him why. We can always pray. We can always ask for courage, strength. As long as we have our faith on Him, and we fully believe in Him, inshaAllah, He will make things easier for us. He will not burden us for something we cannot take, right? believe in that. please do. I am trying to keep my faith strong. Because I believe, He has His own reason(S).

almost 2 weeks…

it has been a long time. has it? yes I guess so.

life has been normal, again, finally. Alhamdulillah. There is nothing more that I wished for than a normal life. Well, normal as student who are studying away from her family. that kind of normal.

Well, God will never stop test us. That is one of His ways to show us that He loves us, right? So we have to accept things full heartedly with patience and perseverance. Yesterday was not an easy day. Let’s just keep it a secret but I was disappointed with everything, I regretted of what I chose, everything! But God knows best for me, right? I forgot that for a moment. I’ll try to work things out. I will get my dream come true. I will never stop fighting for my right, fighting for everything that I have worked for since I was a kid. I will never let myself disappointed, and people around me disappointed with me.  Please pray for me. and all the best to all of you too. I love you all.

2nd January 2011

11.35 pm, i will leave Malaysia for United States. I will leave my family, my chentas and my friends. I will leave them for good. I will come back with my degree and make you all proud.

dear family,
thank you for everything. thank you for taking care of me over these years.

dear chentas,
thank you for the lovely moments I had with you. thank you for being such a very wonderful friends I ever have.

dear friends,
sorry for not being able to meet you all before I go. thank you for the memories and thank you for being my great friends.

and thank you for all. thank you and sorry. please pray for my safe journey to the States and for the 2 years.

oh and yes, happy new year 2011 to all. i don’t have any new resolutions for this year but as always, hope this year will be better than 2010 and previous years. i love you all.