I don’t know

Salam dear all. and hello!
I am currently at Grand Junction, Colorado, one of the stops of my so called summer trip. So called? because the weather has been no good since the first day of our trip. It’s okay, at least, thanks to Allah for letting me go to see His beautiful, spectacular creations. Subhanallah. He is the most powerful Creator.

and I got my result for my first semester in Uni of Iowa. *sigh* I don’t know what to say. Maybe this is the best for me, for now. I don’t know. I just feel like giving up. Life here has never been as great as Malaysia. I don’t know. I keep telling myself, “I can do this.” but I don’t know now. I really don’t know. I don’t want to give up. I never give up in my entire life. In everything. but this time, it is really challenging. being away from family, have to think a lot of stuff, being away from my chentas, from my best friends, everything! Everything seems not right. Not a thing. No! I don’t know now. But I know one thing, Allah always knows the best and always listen.

But seriously, I miss Malaysia. someone baik hati, please but my a one way ticket to Malaysia. I want to go back and don’t want to come back to this place.

the beginning of summer break :)

Alhamdulillah, I am officially done with my first semester here in University of Iowa, United States. I am very happy because I know I really worked hard this semester. The result, I’ll leave it to HIM.

Currently, the Malaysian students in Iowa City are busy packing their stuff to go back to their hometown for Summer break. One group have left yesterday, and tonight, one group will leave. It is sad though to watch them leave. But yeah, I will be tough. I will leave for summer break west trip tomorrow morning. California, Disneyland! wait for me!

Have a great holiday people!

Barakah day, Friday.

Alhamdulillah.

Today was the final class of my first semester in the University of Iowa. Cannot yet breath normally, but Alhamdulillah, Allah let me finish my classes on a very beautiful Friday. It is, seriously! Today is wonderful. The weather is very calming. Not really warm, not really cold. Just nice for just a layer of clothing. Even though I did not get enough sleep today, but today, I spent my time wisely. Had a Chinese cuisine for lunch with a friend, went to Field House and played badminton and had an Indian cuisine for dinner treated by Aqilah. I walked to home from Fatonah’s house alone, which was very scary since it is Friday night where people are partying. It was scary. I promise, I will never ever do that again. But then again, Alhamdulillah for a very amazing day. I’m ready for the race to the final. to work extra hard till the very end. And now, I’m ready to sleep and get a very good start for tomorrow.

anyhow, I’m very glad that I have very kind friends here. I was afraid when I first came here. I remember I told Aiman how homesick I was, and I want my family here. and he said, friends are your family here. Indeed, yes. they are like family. Sometimes I don’t feel very homesick and missing home because of them. Ya Allah, thank you for letting me to know them, and to be friend with them. Thank you so much. Alhamdulillah.

Today is Friday, and a very special Friday. Thank you to Allah.